Money is a dirty word?

I grew up in a Jewish Orthodox home
“Money” in our home, was considered a dirty word.
My parents had 8 children.
My dad worked very hard.
Mama raised us and didn’t work out of the home.
When I needed money, I was afraid to ask for it.
because I just knew they would simply say, “no”.
I realized the difficulties to the extent
that I even felt guilty asking for it.